Headache

I’m screaming your name
in my head
because I chose not to have you
because you were never mine
to have.
But when I close my eyes
I can see all of your face
I can look into your eyes
and feel your shoulders
and chest
and tongue
and
I’m screaming your name
in my head
because I chose to never
scream it aloud.
But when I close my eyes
I miss you.